Nanowrimo progress report

 I am really struggling with this Nanowrimo because, like everything, I over analyze and have to plan so much that I am paralyzed and can't do anything. The whole point of Nanowrimo is to write by the seat of your pants. This I am not doing. I am thinking about knocking off the rest of the night because I am introducing another character and it is too much to worry about right now. I want him to be the perfect blend of psycho and nice guy. Is that too much to ask?

Fall check in!

I always vow that I will keep up my blog, but life gets in the way. 'Tis no matter because I haven't done any writing and I stopped writing for the content entry sites in June because it was too much work for an uncertain outcome. I am still working on my fear of submitting my work to a real live publisher. I am reading The Courage to Write by Ralph Keyes. Hopefully it will help. NANOWRIMO is coming in November and I am doing it again this year. My other news is that I am going to take a screenwriting class at U.T. next semester. I always wanted to take it when I was still in college, but the class was always held in the afternoon and I had to work. The class is now held at night, so I will be able to take it. So yay! The best part is that I have no choice but to write and do my homework. Whatever it takes. Whatever it takes. Plus, I will get feedback on my writing. I see an adviser on the 18th to get registered.

Keep on keepin' on

Well, 2010 is upon us and it is time to create some goals to ignore. I would like to send my book out, decide what I am going to do about content writing, create a writing website, get over my fear of rejection and join the local writer's group.

I was looking at my book this past week and I have to say that I just don't get the point of it. What is the point? To tell a story of course. But so what? What about the story? Is it even worth telling? Or is this another way of devaluing my work. Apparently I thought enough about it before I wrote it to start writing it and sticking with it over all of these years. So I will keep on, keepin' on. I guess that is the theme of 2010.

Word count 11/12

10,023 words today, slightly ahead of schedule.

I haven't been making a big deal out of writing after my freakout from the other day because I committed to this and it is really ridiculous to cry and moan about it. This is the business we have chosen!

Anyhow, I have been thinking about what happiness is and how excruciatingly painful writing is for me and how this can't possibly make me happy. Then what can? Maybe I have to wallow in the pain. I am afraid that every time I sit down I won't be able to come up with anything. That is my fear. I stop writing in my journal because I run out of things to say. The truth is that sometimes life is very boring and sometimes I don't want to talk about my feelings. I think I have grown out of that navel gazing somewhat. So I stop writing for a while to refresh my thoughts. I go run, or I sew, or I make a bracelet, or I knit something and it is refreshing and then I come back to writing after a while.

Maybe this is how it is for me.